inner peace
08.16.2011 
My eyes flew open at 5:00 a.m. and my heart pounded in my chest from the nightmare. Matthew was alone, sick and desperate in the horrible scenario in the dream. This is a recurrent nightmare - one of my children is separated from me and in need. I cannot get to him. I had this nightmare many times in Honduras until it became REAL and I had to leave four of my sons there. That is another story. But the lesson is the same.
A partial truth is the calling card of the Enemy. Matthew is sick. He has mono; we got the test results yesterday. He is not alone. He is not desperate. Nonetheless, I got up at 5:00 a.m. and began a battle to release my worries and fears to the Lord.
After making some Cuban petrol, aka strong Cuban coffee; I took up my post on the patio in the cool of the morning. Did you hear me? I said cool. What a change! Wrapped in a fuzzy brown blanket full of holes (Skip chews holes in every blanket we have), I opened my Battle Plan. Jesus Calling by Sarah Young lead me to Psalm 27. Verse 4 is my verse for 2011. One thing is the theme of this blog... I will seek ONE THING.
One thing I ask of the LORD, this is what I seek: that I may dwell in the house of the Lord all the days of my life, to gaze upon the beauty of the Lord and to seek him in his temple.
And so I began to realize the two scenarios in Psalm 27. There is an internal truth: David says, “The Lord is the stronghold of my life.” Then there is the external truth: a day of trouble. Evil men are advancing to devour his flesh. He has oppressors, false witnesses breathing violence, an army besieging him.
While all this swirls about David, his private world is at peace because the Lord is his stronghold. Inside there is light. He is safe. He is sacrificing with shouts of joy. He is confident and singing. He calls out to the Lord. He asks to learn His ways. Both of his eyes are gazing upon the beauty of the Lord. His soul says to seek the face of the Lord. He is hidden in the shelter of the Lord’s tabernacle.
The concluding verse says:
Wait for the LORD; be strong and take heart and wait for the LORD.
Yes, Lord, I will wait. Meanwhile, I will trust and give thanks and gaze.
Matthew, ONE THING, Wait on God, grace
Reader Comments (4)
joining you in prayer for Matthew. Love your Mama's heart. b
Sarah Young took me to the same place this morning only it was through a devotions for kids. And,
then the Lord brought me here again through your blog...I think He is saying to me, "sit in this a little longer". Thanks friend! I too will be praying for Matthew's health.
Oh, Gigi,HUGS today!! I have missed your tender heart and ways and wondered how you all are doing since we moved to KC, MO. Your beautiful writing describes a path we have known intimately~ the illness of our children that presses our hearts to our Faithful,loving Father. We will be asking for His healing touch on Matthew. We have experienced that Jesus is able and willing to heal him up! And we are asking for Jesus to do what He loves to do ~ heal ~ this Mono (Mt. 12:15-17,Luke 9:11,,Is. 53:5) in His love and compassion. LOVE that The PERFECT love of Jesus has everything we need for our hearts as well!! That the more we press in to this river of love, it casts out all fear. We have seen over and over how Jesus can and will step into the impossible and bring His healing and Life ~turning our wait into His testimony of love. He loves to bring us what we need. Like, Mary, you have chosen the "best place". there is no other, is there? He tends our hearts, especially our mother's heart SO well. I pray as you gaze on Him, that you will be so aware of how He is gazing on you. How your heart moves His. How He will move for you,one of His "favorite one(s). (song of s. 6:9) May you hear in this storm, Jesus' declaration over it of, "PEACE, stop. Be no more. Be still. Healing come. Wholeness be." Blessings to you and to your precious family. Love, Gillian
Thanks, ladies, for those words of encouragement. You put COURAGE in me!
Love to y'all!