carry me
04.14.2011 
This morning Sam woke up barking like a seal. He had swim lessons yesterday and I think the pool chlorine irritated his airways. His asthma makes him more sensitive like that. He asked me, like he usually does first thing, “Mom, do I have school today?”
When I responded “yes,” he began to cry. Little whimpering cries required some effort on his part to maintain. I knew time would heal his airways and he would clear the drainage. And he did.
But when he began to cry, I picked him up and just held him. His head nestled into my neck and rested on my shoulder. He is still small enough to cuddle and I can hold him and walk. We made our way to the chair where we sit in the mornings. Skip rested on the edge. My Bible was already open. The chair is large and holds Joshua as well when he pads in later in the mornings.
I wrote in my journal... Lord I am fretful.
See I have a big meeting today with some people who have a little earthly power bequeathed to them by a title. Really, I have nothing to lose in this meeting. The only “bad” thing that could happen is they may choose not to believe me. It’s as if the Lord is saying to me... “Gigi, who will you choose to believe? Me or them? Will you believe what I say about you is true? Will you fret over what these people MAY think about you?”
Later today after I fed Joshua a hardy breakfast so he is ready for his tests, and after I dropped Sam at pre-school; I called a dear friend. I told her of my angst. She lead me to a verse in Deuteronomy.
The LORD your God who goes before you will himself fight for you, just as he did for you in Egypt before your eyes, and in the wilderness, where you have seen how the LORD your God carried you, as a man carries his son, all the way that you went until you came to this place.'
I thought of how I carried Sam this morning in his momentary distress. And so now, I lift my arms up to my Abba. And I say, “Carry me.”
gigi
Thank you to everyone who prayed for my meeting. God's Presence was very real to me during it. I am grateful that I went and for all that He is teaching me through it.
Samuel, Wait on God
Reader Comments (6)
EXACTLY what I needed to read in this moment. Thanks Gigi.
Thanks for sharing Gigi! I love the new look of your blog. Your words are always a blessing.
hey there - again - thanks so much for sharing your heart so openly.. I am learning about my own heart, and how I'm crippled with fear as well some.. Your words and freedom to share inspire me. :) thank you!
Beautiful-Thank You-Love the new Blog!
LOVED this post. So raw and encouraging. You always are. Thanks, Geej!
I love this and your new page! You and your family look great! Thanks for continuing to "listen" to His voice and for sharing those moments.